I felt so ashamed and the truth inside would never set me free.
Scorned judgement as a ton of bricks weighing heavily on my chest.
Dear God, I cannot breathe.
What tears are falling .
Make them stop.
This must be a nightmare invading my reality.
An illusion of my fate that will teeter-totter over a cliff and I will fall hard and those onlooking will walk away without a care in the world.
I have become my worst enemy.
Clearly clarity has defined me as someone like this.
I'm not a bad person. I know I'm truly not .
Can I forgive myself and look God in the eye?
My belief is as strong as these words pouring through. Just as blood seeping from an open wound.
Self sabotage and the truth inside will you only listen to me.
I believe..
I believe..
I believe..
That MY truth will set me free.
The bricks will comfort me as a blanket of love and now I can draw in a deep breath of certainty.
The clarity rising like a phoenix and burning my tears dry.
The guilt and shame was my own doing. Those turned to help, and I pushed them away.
Today I will surrender to my own truth that is calling me.
Look now, I can see God's heartfelt face smiling down at me.
A face of true forgiveness that resides deep within me.
If you can only reconcile your truth.
Today I will not face judgement, as MY truth had already set me free.
